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Date: 06.21.17
When Satisfaction Eludes You

Have you ever thought that if you could just have something or someone you desired that you could be more satisfied than you are with God? Have you ever wondered if another love or desire could take His place, that something or someone else could save you from life, fear, loneliness, desperation, heartbreak, disappointment, or any other ailment of heart?

In 2009, I momentarily considered getting something I wanted at the expense of obeying God, because an ache in my heart was pushing me to the edge of obsession. For a few days I believed that fulfilling my desire would relieve my longing in ways that God couldn’t. I’m thankful that I took my feelings to God through journaling. He used my journaling to set me straight and reminded me that He alone is enough.

May 21, 2009

Every now and then, my faith is washed away in a torrential downpour of longing. In this stormy ache, everything I have learned about you, who you are, remembrance of what you have done in my life, and the truth of your love for me is washed away in a flood of desire for satisfaction—for something or someone that promises to put an end to my longing. In these moments, when I have forgotten you, when I don’t believe you are enough, I am most vulnerable to compromising what I believe, of laying you on the altar and killing my relationship with you for my own dreams, hopes, and desires I believe will satisfy. Dreams, hopes, and desires such as love, intimacy, romance, children, sex, comfort, companionship, and significance. When these things dominate me, and I feel that I must have them to save me, it’s because I doubt that you are enough. Doubting you, doubting your love, the doubt beckons me to trade you for an idol, a lesser love. But if I let you go, what do I have? Like the Psalmist, I ask, “Whom have I in heaven but you?” Who in all of earth, all of my city, all of my home, and all of my bed at night? Whom have I but you? No one. No one compares. No, I will not kill my relationship with you by exchanging you for an idol, a lesser love, for my greatest love is you. I will not trade you in for temporary satisfaction. You last forever. Idols and lesser loves do not.

No thing, no person and no experience can satisfy like Christ. When we look for peace in anything but Him, we will find that our hands may be full, while our hearts are empty. Will you choose to let Him alone be enough today?

Prayer: Lord, please purify my affections so that I can say as Paul did, “I have learned the secret of being content. . .” Lord, help me to live my life always remembering that you are my Enough. Amen. 

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10 thoughts on “When Satisfaction Eludes You

  1. You are divinely gifted Shana, I so needed this today. Thank you for being a beacon of light on days when it seems darkest.

  2. Very heartfelt Shana. I think we all feel that tug of “alluded satisfaction”, whether it be career, talents, shortcomings, relationships, ambitions or dreams. I think it is one of the primary struggles we face in life, and the evil one sure knows how to exploit that!

    In this world of constant pressures and distractions it is easy to be manipulated into thinking we are lacking, when it fact with the proper perspective of eternity we have the greatest gift and riches imaginable.

    Our lives here are just a dress rehearsal for the character, personality and soul we will bring with us into a life lived in Christ’s presence; forever!

    Blessings, Ron

  3. This is so very powerful Shana. Your wisdom overwhelmed me.

    The beauty and insight you shared from your personal journal is awesome and true. We all struggle with the urge to replace God with something we think will satisfy us. Your gift is that you articulated it in simple yet elegant prose that came straight from your heart and your love for God.

    Thank you for sharing your inner heart on such an important struggle we all face.

    Blessings, Ron

    1. Tierney,

      I am super grateful for your comment. I always think that people really aren’t all that different from one another. So, if I have gone through something, I usually think that someone else has experienced something similar, so I like to share.
      I am thankful to have you as one of my Beyond Imagination friends here.

      Blessings,
      Shana

  4. I keep this in my email when I too get discouraged. Yesterday was a tough day, both girls respect….less for me. I prayed and felt alone, God filled me with peace. Didn’t take away the sadness of fighting with my children, but the Holy Spirit held my heart till I finally fell asleep. I turned my audio bible in after laying there exhausted both emotionally and physically after praying and sometimes getting off track with my prayers, then tried to just meditate and still no sleep would come. I listened to my Bible audio and fell asleep as God’s word was read to me. This is a new day and God’s light will shine if we all let it. Thx for your articles to keep me on track Shana!

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  • You are divinely gifted Shana, I so needed this today. Thank you for being a beacon of light on days when it seems darkest.

  • Very heartfelt Shana. I think we all feel that tug of “alluded satisfaction”, whether it be career, talents, shortcomings, relationships, ambitions or dreams. I think it is one of the primary struggles we face in life, and the evil one sure knows how to exploit that!

    In this world of constant pressures and distractions it is easy to be manipulated into thinking we are lacking, when it fact with the proper perspective of eternity we have the greatest gift and riches imaginable.

    Our lives here are just a dress rehearsal for the character, personality and soul we will bring with us into a life lived in Christ’s presence; forever!

    Blessings, Ron

  • This is so very powerful Shana. Your wisdom overwhelmed me.

    The beauty and insight you shared from your personal journal is awesome and true. We all struggle with the urge to replace God with something we think will satisfy us. Your gift is that you articulated it in simple yet elegant prose that came straight from your heart and your love for God.

    Thank you for sharing your inner heart on such an important struggle we all face.

    Blessings, Ron

    • Tierney,

      I am super grateful for your comment. I always think that people really aren’t all that different from one another. So, if I have gone through something, I usually think that someone else has experienced something similar, so I like to share.
      I am thankful to have you as one of my Beyond Imagination friends here.

      Blessings,
      Shana

  • I keep this in my email when I too get discouraged. Yesterday was a tough day, both girls respect….less for me. I prayed and felt alone, God filled me with peace. Didn’t take away the sadness of fighting with my children, but the Holy Spirit held my heart till I finally fell asleep. I turned my audio bible in after laying there exhausted both emotionally and physically after praying and sometimes getting off track with my prayers, then tried to just meditate and still no sleep would come. I listened to my Bible audio and fell asleep as God’s word was read to me. This is a new day and God’s light will shine if we all let it. Thx for your articles to keep me on track Shana!

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